I started this site few weeks ago. (edit on 6/25/2022– few months ago)

Got it looking like I wanted, posted twice, and then…nothing.

When I started this piece I had watched something the day before on Hoda & Jenna (April 15, 2022) and the guest was a friend of Hoda’s in Jenna’s absence. They made some comment about doing something you love or dream by investing 10% of your time then increasing it every year…basically until it becomes the thing that you do 100% of your time. A pang of personal guilt went through me as I was watching. My dream, the thing I think I am good at, the thing I just know is true, yet some how find so hard to give myself … that is writing. It is my longest dream…but my practical side, the one that craves stability, steady paycheck, nice house, food and good clothes– that side has obligations. So I am left “trying” to switch my perspective and create a space to write consistently every week or better, everyday. As write this I am remembering what Yoda says …”there is no try only do” (Star Wars Episode V: Empire Strikes Back)

Anyone can do a quick Google search and read the multitude of research and commentary on steps to creating new habits. I am not going to regurgitate all that here in this draft. I know I have to create a space to do this daily..maybe not put into this blog daily, maybe write a few lines every day then go live once a week. The thing is — I think there are some other habits that need to be established along with the writing one. (Other habits to think about changing- eating, exercise, self care, sleeping, and better work – life balance)

First I need to get better a daily routine that creates balance. Lately I have been feeling overwhelmed. I know I have time to accomplish my daily task– yet I find that I am not being truly present in each task. When I am working, I am thinking of home task. When I am at home, I am thinking of work task. When I am doing either of the above two, I am thinking of family stuff. I know this is the underline cause of the perception of being overwhelmed, yet it continues. I have created this habit, the lines have been getting blurry for sometime now. How do I reestablish some internal boundaries? How do I reset?

Creating a better daily routine is not just about defining my time better, or being present in each task or activity. It is also about some basic things that I have also ‘slipped’ on. I eat pretty healthy, I am consistent in that aspect, however I am not one for daily exercise. At least not consistently. I am better when I get out my extra bent up energy. I think better, I prioritize and organize better. Otherwise I am just spinning in place. Round and round, each moment a fuzzy blurry jumbled mess, no clarity, no path in sight.

June 25, 2022– so I left this piece alone for awhile. So the creating a space in my life to write is not going as well as I would have liked. This is why I started this particular article. I can say life has been a bit busy, family visits, outings, dental appointments, doctor appointments.. all those things happen. However I was able to read more than 6 books, had a week off from work, and played World of War Craft at least 4 hours every week. So I have time to do this. I JUST DID NOT DO IT!

Here is what I ( and other members of my household) have accomplished. We have reduced the sugar we intake, increased our plant based food options, created a routine of walking everyday — well me and my sister walk every morning & occasionally later in the afternoon. We have altered our “chores” so that each of us have a balanced and equatable share of daily task. My husband took over doing all the laundry — yes — he really did! While I maintained daily cooking and cleaning. I have noticed that this small change in chores has improved quality to my daily life and ease of my routine. This is what I call the prep work for laying a solid foundation to support a change or alteration in priorities. I am a creature of habit. So when I need to form new habits– I literally have to change my entire process, from day to night! By proxy, so does anyone that lives with me! Grateful for the amazing support of my inner circle!

So now that all the above is completed– how can I increase the time to write and make this happen?

I find I have more time on Saturdays to set aside for myself. So this is my new task. Attempt to write and publish every Saturday. Even it is just a poem or quick thought. Just to get it completed and get my “writing skill” workout.

If you took time to read– hope you and your adventures are going well. If they are not– rest assure… resets are not easy. Pause, reassess, evaluate what worked and what did not. Now create a new plan! Thanks for reading!